The contents of my Bag

posted fb 12/11/13

#277 My Vanity Bag

I carry a vanity bag

whenever I leave home

those things you just can’t do without

as time goes on

I have noticed

the contents they have changed

it is less about beauty

more about pain

less about looking good

more about trying to maintain

an appearance

which is showing wear and tear

oh how my vanity bag has changed

no more pretty colours

just a variety of pills

Lots of Homework to do

posted fb 12/11/13

#276 Homework

Homework can be so difficult at times

if I understood what was going on

in the classroom

at the time

maybe there would be no homework

for me to take home

to share with my parents

encroaching on my time

so valuable

catching up with programs and shows

on my flickering box

which incidentally

I do not bring to school

and insist that you watch

Woman gets shot after car accident

I read a shocking news report, but then it wasn't that shocking.  A black woman was shot after she knocked on a strangers door in the early morning I think 3 am after she had a car accident.  .... Let's discuss.  I have had a few accidents ok on main roads if I had an accident on a residential road would I knock on a strangers door and a) ask for help
b) ask to use the phone...


ok I am not sure under what circumstance would I knock on a strangers door after having an accident oh yes c) very confused and possibly lost my mind.

I have lived in my neighbourhood for just over 9 years and there are some neighbours I smile at and say good day to and others we just keep our distance now all the doors look much the same, I mean how do you assess a friendly person /helpful person from a mean darn  right nasty person.  Unfortunately this young lady got it wrong.



posted fb 09/11/13

#272 Accidental Shooting

I have had an accident

ok just a few

but there is something

I have never thought to do

knock on someone’s door

in the middle of the night

imagine if that was you

wouldn’t that be a fright

when the collision happened

and they didn’t come out

that was an indication of what they are about

they say a man’s home is his castle

and this he must defend

now fortunately for me

no guns can my neighbours depend

would they shoot me?

in a heart beat

I have to say yes

I have seen the way they look at me

They don’t like the way I dress

they look at me as if I shouldn’t be

and if I have to

do I have to be free?

most of my neighbours they just tolerate

my boss employs me

as it makes him feel great

maybe I have got this wrong

but the statistics don’t lie

our children are being systematically failed

are men are incarcerated

don’t you ever ask why

so if I have an accident

I will sit in my car

if it is going to explode

I will take my chance

rather than knock on a door

and get involved in 'dodge the bullet dance'

Still in pain

posted  fb 09/11/13

#273 Stuck in the middle

Stuck in the middle

between torment and pain

I want to shut off the signals to my brain

no going forward no going back

this pain has me tormented that is a fact

I walk around as if I am casted in cement

and everything I do

makes no difference, makes no dent

the pain has me holding my breath

I want to stifle this pain

until there is nothing left

I close my eyes

as I try to shut out

not wanting to see this pain

I believe is my only way out

He Want's me

posted fb 07/11/13

#270 He wants me

He wants me

he wants me to lose weight

how dare he

he is suppose to love me regardless

he is suppose to love me unconditionally

as I am his mate

he hasn’t said it

he doesn’t want to offend

but I can read between the lines

of his comments

his sarcastic pen

I was this size when we met

time hasn’t been kind

ok I have put a few pounds here and there

that would be father time

he has taken to hiding food

restricting what I eat

it isn’t as if I can’t touch my toes

or I can’t see my feet

how did we come to this?

I began to comfort eat

now there is no comfort in this food

they’re are no longer treats

My hair does not define me

posted fb 07/11/13

#271 My hair does not define me

My hair does not define me

it makes me more of me

my hair challenges you

it offends you

it stares you in the face

how dare I not straighten

am I really part of this Black race?

you believe I am lazy

as I do not conform

making my hair lay flat

I understand is the norm

you believe I am a disgrace

as you are forced to look at my face

without the asian locks

hiding my nubian traits

so I do not spend hours

at the hairdressers

sitting in a chair

listening to the gossip

while they take texture and flare

I am not affected by the media

and what you want me to be

and men who don't look at me

are shallow and simply not for me

this is not how I chose to spend my money

buying perms and tracks

as they play on your insecurities

and laugh behind your backs

Random Acts of Violence

posted fb 07/11/13

#269 Random act of violence

They call it ‘Random acts of violence’

when there is no cause

my car was sitting peacefully

when it happened

in the middle of the night

I blame everyone

including myself

how could I be so forgetful

so absent minded

leaving my car out at night

by itself

they broke the glass

and rummaged within

I felt violated and mortified

about what they found

they said I was lucky

because nothing they stole

they took my comfort

of knowing that my car was safe

well not no more

I blamed everyone

including myself

my neighbours for not letting me know

how terrible this area had become

the insurance company

said I had to pay

explain why we have insurance anyway

my car drove around

humiliated and wounded

with a makeshift bandaid

oh the humiliation

now everyone knew of the violation