I am my worst critic, I am being so hard on myself. I set this challenge and it was just to keep me busy I guess. Every now and then I get a ‘Like’ from a FB friend then I am like yeah that’s nice. For the most of it my work goes unnoticed. I am enjoying it, it has brought a very new dimension to my day. I look around for ideas, I see inspiration almost everywhere. When I say look it is a preoccupation. Sometimes it is just the lack of vocabulary that prevents me from getting a poem together. I tap out things on my Blackberry whilst on the train, I will find a scrap of paper and jot something down. I have poems in various states of readiness.
Sometimes poems I write frightens me. Sometimes they have a strong political slant. Politics are everywhere, others are just so damn personal and intimate. I am like can’t share that. This is why I started in performance poetry over 13 years ago and to date I haven’t published a poetry book, a collection. Well with this FB challenge I am hoping the book near enough produces itself. It’s a foolproof idea if there is anything like that.
Posted fb 20/04/13
#78 What Was I Thinking
What was I thinking
I can’t do this
There is only so much writing
Anyone person can submit
I’ve reached my limit
There is nothing less
What can I say
I tried my best
I have ideas
But nothing concrete
Let me put my pen down
And admit defeat
I’ve written over 100 poems I am sure
They can’t expect any more
Some have been average
Some have been good
There is nothing left in me
I even taken it to the Hood
I am so opinionated
I talk so much
There must be something left
Just a little touch
Something I can expand on
Something that will grow
If I don’t try I will never know....
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