So much rubbish has been said

posted fb 14/11/13

#279 Rubbish breeds rubbish

It’s funny how people who don’t know you

have lots to say

what they don’t know, they will fabricate

be on their merry way

not realising that they are doing permanent damage

rubbishing your reputation

rubbishing your name

for their time in the spotlight

for their five minutes of fame

for the little information

they have

goes a long long way

They continue repeating what they think they know

if they stopped for a minute to think

they will realise that nothing they say

makes any sense

and the story they tell, doesn’t go so

the people who listen are equally to blame

can’t they just say ‘Stop!’

have you got your facts clear?

what you’re saying sounds like a whole pack of lies

if this person is your friend

shouldn’t you at least try

to go back and get your facts straight

for obviously there was a time

when you thought highly of this person

when you thought they were great

Yet these people will continue to repeat

pouring oil on the fire

as they run and retreat

you question how they were ever allowed in

were you really that desperate

that you were scraping the bottom of the bin

About my Blog, about my Blog

posted fb 13/11/13

#274 My Blog

I don’t understand my blog

I don’t understand who tunes in

America Ukraine, Greece and the Uk

are tuning in to what I write

what I have to say

what is the attraction?

I know why I do it

but do they really understand

what I am trying to do

when they tune in and pursue

I thought I knew who would follow my blog

follow my log of poetry

as if I know human nature

obviously not necessarily

got no idea

of what the attraction is

of a  Black Woman in London

trying to survive this racist state

they seem to understand

as if they were me ‘Besse Mate’

I am happy for the pageviews

as this increases page rates

yet even more pain

posted fb 14/11/13#278 I have noticed

I have noticed I moan when I am in pain

it is as if words can’t be formed

yet I need to complain

I have noticed I don’t want to talk

I no longer want to communicate

I  will wait till once more I feel great

I have noticed you no longer call

is this too much reality

no happy sounds anymore

I have noticed you no longer drop by

watching my twisted body

brings tears to your eyes

I have noticed you don’t speak of me as a friend

my continued good health was a clause

something we could depend

I have noticed you don’t include me in your plans

it feels just like when we were young

and you first met your man

The contents of my Bag

posted fb 12/11/13

#277 My Vanity Bag

I carry a vanity bag

whenever I leave home

those things you just can’t do without

as time goes on

I have noticed

the contents they have changed

it is less about beauty

more about pain

less about looking good

more about trying to maintain

an appearance

which is showing wear and tear

oh how my vanity bag has changed

no more pretty colours

just a variety of pills

Lots of Homework to do

posted fb 12/11/13

#276 Homework

Homework can be so difficult at times

if I understood what was going on

in the classroom

at the time

maybe there would be no homework

for me to take home

to share with my parents

encroaching on my time

so valuable

catching up with programs and shows

on my flickering box

which incidentally

I do not bring to school

and insist that you watch

Woman gets shot after car accident

I read a shocking news report, but then it wasn't that shocking.  A black woman was shot after she knocked on a strangers door in the early morning I think 3 am after she had a car accident.  .... Let's discuss.  I have had a few accidents ok on main roads if I had an accident on a residential road would I knock on a strangers door and a) ask for help
b) ask to use the phone...


ok I am not sure under what circumstance would I knock on a strangers door after having an accident oh yes c) very confused and possibly lost my mind.

I have lived in my neighbourhood for just over 9 years and there are some neighbours I smile at and say good day to and others we just keep our distance now all the doors look much the same, I mean how do you assess a friendly person /helpful person from a mean darn  right nasty person.  Unfortunately this young lady got it wrong.



posted fb 09/11/13

#272 Accidental Shooting

I have had an accident

ok just a few

but there is something

I have never thought to do

knock on someone’s door

in the middle of the night

imagine if that was you

wouldn’t that be a fright

when the collision happened

and they didn’t come out

that was an indication of what they are about

they say a man’s home is his castle

and this he must defend

now fortunately for me

no guns can my neighbours depend

would they shoot me?

in a heart beat

I have to say yes

I have seen the way they look at me

They don’t like the way I dress

they look at me as if I shouldn’t be

and if I have to

do I have to be free?

most of my neighbours they just tolerate

my boss employs me

as it makes him feel great

maybe I have got this wrong

but the statistics don’t lie

our children are being systematically failed

are men are incarcerated

don’t you ever ask why

so if I have an accident

I will sit in my car

if it is going to explode

I will take my chance

rather than knock on a door

and get involved in 'dodge the bullet dance'

Still in pain

posted  fb 09/11/13

#273 Stuck in the middle

Stuck in the middle

between torment and pain

I want to shut off the signals to my brain

no going forward no going back

this pain has me tormented that is a fact

I walk around as if I am casted in cement

and everything I do

makes no difference, makes no dent

the pain has me holding my breath

I want to stifle this pain

until there is nothing left

I close my eyes

as I try to shut out

not wanting to see this pain

I believe is my only way out